He didn’t like cigarette smoke.
I don’t know if anything like this has ever happened to you, but when you’re so emotionally unavailable, like I currently am, you can kinda enjoy it. I think I’ve learned how to.
So this Summer has been the best ever for me. A couple of weeks ago, I was in Malta (gorgeous island in the middle of the Mediterranean, that I had no idea of its existence) visiting my best friend and surprising her for her graduation trip. Now, let us not pretend that we don’t do this, lets make it easier and accept that we Facebook-stalk people. Let’s be real, that’s what its for. So of course, I had this guy checked out before we even got on the plane. He wasn’t overly handsome or overwhelmingly charismatic, honestly he was just there for most of the trip.
Anyway, he came off as deep, you know, the musical type. Has everything to say about something but will remain silent for others. I don’t know. That’s the one I secretly liked. Life. But of course, he wasn’t interested in me like that. Life, over kill. But that was fine with me because what I witnessed for the next couple of days was surprisingly entertaining. You have to understand that I really don’t give a fuck about most things that happen to me.
This guy chooses to express an interest in my best friend’s cousin. The girl that has a boyfriend overseas. The girl that won’t cheat on him for anything on this world. That’s the one he wants. Imagine that, life for him works surprisingly like mine. It was hilarious. Don’t get me wrong, he would’ve done anything and anyone who would’ve let him, but he was after this girl because the girl wanted him that way. Which is kinda cruel. But hey, that’s on her.
At the beginning, I kept thinking that he was weighing his options, he would flirt, he winked at me, it was all good fun. But he kept going back to her. He didn’t like people smoking, which was fine, good for him but I was on vacation, I wasn’t gonna defend my position. Yeah, I smoke occasionally, so what. I think that kinda turned him off but then the cousin smoked. He didn’t get it.
Life is supposed to be a joke.
Just laugh. Otherwise it’s laughing at you. The next thing that happened was even weirder. Most of the things that would come out of his mouth, I would agree with but I wouldn’t say so. I’m almost certain he would’ve started liking me more if I said what I really thought. I just didn’t feel like it. You know? I just sat there, understanding him from a far. I just looked. I felt like I had front row seats at how love works. If I wasn’t so chill about this, I would actually be thinking I let my soulmate go. That’s how much we thought a like. Scary alike. Even my friend knows it. And I’m not even sad about it. I’m almost sure I let an “opportunity” pass, but I strongly believe that if it’s bound to happen, it will. I have to.